Celebrity Big Brother star Casey Batchelor has admitted that she attempted suicide when she was 15 while suffering with depression.
The gorgeous star revealed she was struggling to cope with her parents’ divorce and found it difficult to talk about her issues with others, which led to her taking an overdose of pills from her dad’s bathroom cupboard.
Bravely speaking to The Sun, the tearful 30-year-old explained that she remembered the night “vividly,” recalling: “I went into the kitchen and felt so flat. I just couldn’t pull myself out of the depths of despair and isolation I had been feeling for some time. I couldn’t see a way out.
“I always felt blue and down in the dumps and had nobody to share my feelings with. My mum had stopped speaking to me because I’d chosen to live with my dad and I had no friends at school, where the day to day was miserable.
“I was torn apart by their feud and the endless battles at school. It was in a seven-month period when I stopped speaking to my mum that I decided enough was enough.”
She continued: “It was at that crisis moment I remembered there was a stash of drugs in the medicine cupboard in my dad’s bathroom. I took the pills and waited on my bed for the drugs to take effect.
“I expected to feel drowsy — that was my hope, that I would just drift off.”
Thankfully, her attempt was unsuccessful, with the star waking up the following day feeling “so nauseous” and “projectile vomiting,” for hours.
She took a week off school as a sick absence and told her dad she was suffering with a stomach bug.
Looking back, Casey recognises the terrifying incident as a cry for help, saying: “As a child, all I wanted was to be listened to and for people to realise how tough the combination of juggling my studies, my parents divorce and the constant bullying really was.”
Six months after her suicide attempt, she did the “hardest thing” and told her parents what had happened.
“Teenage years are so full of pressure. Everyone was constantly worrying about their looks, their exams, their image. It’s too much for a young person to take on. My mum was heartbroken and we sobbed together on the phone for hours,” she said.
“She kept asking, ‘Why didn’t you tell me?’ But I didn’t have the answer. It was an awful time for both of us but in a weird way it actually brought us closer together.
“I told my dad too. He was sad but I don’t think he realised I was depressed.”
Casey bravely told her story as part of a new mental health campaign, as she is now the ambassador for charity Care After Combat, which provides assistance to Armed Forces veterans and their families.
If you feel suicidal or have a problem with depression and want confidential support, call the Samaritans helpline on 08457 909090 or visit a local branch.
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