We’re just glad she’s doing much better now.
Nicola McLean has revealed that she contemplated suicide after finding out that her husband of five years, Tom Williams, cheated on her earlier this year.
The 32-year-old mum-of-two opened up about her inner turmoil to Now magazine, explaining that she couldn’t imagine her life without her former footballer husband.
She said: “I’ve never been in such a bad way in my life… At the beginning of July, I wanted to kill myself.
“My mind was very erratic. The thought of not being with Tom terrified me so much that I would rather have been dead.”
Nicola, who is mother to sons Rocky, eight, and Striker, four, even went as far as to research how she could end her misery.
She explained: “I’d Google how many pills I’d need to take to kill myself, then I’d think: “You’ve got the best boys in the world – you can’t leave these kids.
“I was self-harming by punching my legs out of frustration. I still have bruises. It’s the same urge as bulimia – you feel angry and frustrated by your need to release.”
The former Celebrity Big Brother contestant has since been prescribed antidepressants and is in regular counseling.
Nicola’s admission comes just weeks after revealing that Tom, who she has been with for 11 years, had cheated on her in Las Vegas during one of his frequent visits to run his concierge business.
Confirmation that the two had officially split came last month with Nicola telling Reveal magazine: “I’ve known my marriage has been over for months, but I’ve been fighting it. I’m the lowest I’ve ever felt.
“Everyone sees me as a strong, hard-faced b***h, when actually I’m just an insecure girl who wants her marriage to work.
“I’m not perfect, but I’ve been 100 per cent faithful to my husband, marriage, and children, and I can take that away from this.”
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